Box Of Rocks And Some Cheerios
Current mood: uncomfortable
Category: Blogging
I'm feeling random & was tired of the "Happy" blog up there because the very next day and then the following Tuesday after Thanksgiving were horrid. NO don't get me wrong this isn't a bad blog, I'm just in a wierd mood.
As most of you know I didn't get the job. Of course that hasn't stopped the carpetwalkers (as Jim in QC likes to call them) from requesting me to come and help out.
Don't feel sorry for me now because I'm OKAY with it, but I did spend Thanksgiving alone. I was invited in September and was really excited about it, but when it came down to it I suppose I really wasn't. I had already had my Thanksgiving with my family, but it was weird. Mark had the kids and did Thanksgiving with Anna and his family & hers... I spent the day packing & moving some stuff by myself into my new apartment (which I love, btw) I was just upset about the miscommunication prior to the holiday.
Oh yeah and um... The following Tuesday really sucked, but I don't want to talk about that. I guess it doesn't matter how much you like someone... it's just hard to feel rejected all the the time. I know my day's coming tho.
I did, however ask someone out on a date Friday! I was a horrible date though. We stayed in to watch a movie and I fell asleep within 5 minutes. So he asked me again Sat evening... and yesterday I got a migrane. He really likes me, I don't know how much, but I assume he does because he got me a shower cutrain for my bathroom. Kind of an amusing little ditty there...
I've determined I'm not going to fall for anyone though. I just don't think I could handle another bout of "not working out" for circumstances. So I'm keeping my heart shut and my closeness sparse. Maybe in time, but I thought I had been doing okay before. I just wish I knew what the right time was...
Now as everyone should know my divorce is officially done. I am not married by law or in my heart. It's bittersweet. I can't really describe how I feel. I'll miss it a lot, but I know it can never be the same. At anyrate I think I'm done ranting for now.
I wish I had some cheerios or something to snack on, but I'm afraid it would taste like a box of rocks. Appetite anyone?
Comments:
Hun I am glad you look on the positive side that your day will come, You deserve to be happy and someday you will be truely happy *BIG HUGS*
Posted by Crystal on Monday, December 11, 2006 - 8:28 PM
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