.....I love him Saturday, February 10, 2007

.....I love him
Current mood: hopeful

This quote struck me for some reason. It's everything that makes me scared of love, yet everything that attracts me to it. I think I have been through my worst nighmare and in the end I found someone who makes everything worthwhile...

although I will admit, "it's" not over yet... The conclusion is drawn out slowly (to torture me I think). No one should expect me to be over everything that happened in a few short months... Although I am doing better. I AM getting better. I thought I swore off love, but in the least expected moment- love found me...

Here is the quote:



Is love worth all that? I don't know. I really don't. I would like to say that nothing is worth all that crap. Then I think... Would I go through hell and back for him? Yes. I would.

I guess the question I have is, am I worth that kind of love? There was a time in my life where I knew beyond a doubt that I was worth it... but those have been dashed. I wonder if the love I have to give is greater than the love I'm getting. Would anyone find me worth while of going through their worst nightmare?

I wish I could express more than in mere words how I really feel (although you readers, I doubt you could handle the real emotions that flow under my heart) Sometimes I overwhelm myself.
But yes, I love him.

I'm on the brim of bliss's cup and can almost see in awe. No stone thrown my way recently. It makes me happy and scared at the same time.

My children told me they really like him, so that means a lot to me.

I was almost too scared and wanted to run away- I wanted to push him away from me... but... I don't think that's what I was supposed to do. So I didn't. I think he's just as scared, so we have to help each other out...

He just wants me to love him.... so that I CAN do. I do love him.