My goal :) Tuesday, August 07, 2007

My goal :)
Current mood: productive
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
Well I'm sick of the way I look. So I was thinking of Melissa Long's speech she gave us where she was talking about her teacher saying 'you are where you want to be.'

Well I didn't like how I looked a year ago and this time a year ago I was walking about 3 miles every morning. Toward the "end" (of my walking sessions) I was even at a point where I was running part way. I was really proud of myself. I liked the way it was making me feel and the way I was looking. I was surprized that I was even starting to enjoy the running because everyone that knows me knows I hate running!! I remember wearing a pair of jeans I wasn't able to wear for almost a year....

Well the whole "mark and anna" thing happened (never mind the amount of wieght I lost from that bundle of stress) and I lost my motivation temporarily to work out. By time I was ready to get back into it, I couldn't.

Then later I no longer had the luxury to walk or jog around town because I am stuck at home with the little ones. At least that is my excuse for letting go and not doing anything. I was feeling "okay" working at 80/20 because I was lifting boxes, walking all day, and stuff like that. I didn't feel too bad at all.

Well now that I sit on my arse all day I don't want a secretary butt or a healthy midsection... I don't like how I am so terribly out of shape and I certaintly don't like the fact that my "fat" pants are now my "normal" pants. So I was thinking of the 'you are where you want to be' speech. Well I must have thought myself acceptable because for almost a year now I had not worked out or been serious about looking and feeling better. That time has changed I know I'm not where I want to be so I am doing something about it.

My goal ulitmately is to maintain a healthier routine and to keep it up much like i did the months before "everything" happened last year. I know it will help my self esteem.

ps, if I had bigger jugs that would be in porportion of my body... well then maybe I wouldn't worry about it as much.

Just kidding.

So starting out my belly from naval is 34 1/4" and my thigh is 24 1/5" (from my freckle) and my weight is 129