Put My Tender Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Put My Tender
Current mood: cynical
Category: Life
heart in a blender and watch it spin round into oblivian...

Why is it when I think I can finally completely grasp happiness and let it take me to a good place some little crapper has to hang on the end of my cloak and dig it's way into my soul. It's like a tick to bury it's miserable head into the deep of my skin and infect everything I know.

Sometimes I hate life and sometimes I love it. Most of the time I'm wonderng through darkness hoping the hand I'm holding is the right hand to lead me through.

I hate how life is so simple, yet so complicated. I think the more simple things are- the harder it is to comprehend. I think too deep for my own good. I live in the grey areas of life that can shift either way instead of seeing the black and white for what it is.

Oh and I've noticed one more thing- I apparently have become a very cynical person. Is that good? Well I suppose it depends if you like those types.

I miss my free imagination and spirit. Although I know I was never really free (and I'm probably more so then I ever was) but I feel trapped now. I want to do what I want to do and I want to do it my way!! Yarrrr.

Comments:

hun why do you think me and everyone who cares about you told you to take sometime to yourself. Cause its important to be happy with just yourself. You don't just have to be happy when your around someone. Part of being single is being able to do what you want, when you want. And you don't have to let anyone know, you just do it cause you want to. True it does get lonely by yourself but thats what friends are for. To keep you company when things get complicated. Thats how i get through the single life everyday, cause i have great friends.
Just take care of yourself ok hun, we are still friends you know that right. Just make sure you make youself happy first, don't worry about anyone else right now. You need to find youself and when you do never let it go.
Posted by Logan on Wednesday, January 03, 2007 - 1:05 PM