Wrote Anna a letter... Friday, April 06, 2007

Wrote Anna a letter...
Current mood: peaceful
I have been wanting to perhaps talk but don't even know where to begin.

Not that you care, but I am doing really good.

I have a love that Mark was never capable of ever giving me. I was ignorantly blissful for so many years I never did anything I truly wanted to do. I was not the "me" I wanted to be. I was surpressed, and now I am not.

You will never even begin to comprehend the pain you two put me through and I hope you will never have to even experience a tenth of it. Even though I know I am better off sometimes it just aches anyway.

I wish my children weren't involved or hurt, but when they get bigger and understand they can make thier own decisions on how they feel.

I am not the same person I was; I can never go back to that person nor do I want to.

I have thought a lot about some of the struggles I had with Mark and many, many things that weren't happiness but I accepted them for what they were because I had a commitment.

I have learned a lot about people, trust, and life in general. I suppose with any growth it isn't without some pain.

Aryan~

Comments:

Good for you, did you actually write it to her? that will deffinatly help you out with your closure.good job. because you know you are the better person in that situation, you didnt betray one of them.and you "tried" to stay strong, and for the moast part, I think you have been handeling it well. Kirby is a good man for helping you through your rough times, I am happy for you that you found him. I hope every thing works out for you!
Posted by Elizabeth on Sunday, April 08, 2007 - 4:26 AM